I miss my mum..

My beloved mum had passed away on 5th Feb 2010 at 10pm..

She left without saying goodbye to me..but i knew days before that something will happen..

She went peacefully..with Syahadah..on the lap of my bibik, Kak In.

Ya Allah..how you tested me with such a test..

I was away..far away from her..i can't hold her hands..i can't teach her to say Syahadah..

It is a big hole in my heart..

I will always miss u,mama...

Alfatihah...

Im in Johor now

Departure: 8pm, 1 January 2010
Stops : RnR Sg Perak, Sg Buluh, Ayer Keroh,Pagoh, Shell Lebuhraya Pasir Gudang.
Driver : Hubby all the way..me sleeping..
Arrival : 10am, 2 January, TS Hotel,Tmn Scientex.

I am now in Pasir Gudang,Johor and away from all my beloved esp. hubby.
Kinda sad and depressing.

SK Kopok is where i teach. I'm now teaching English for Year 1( 2 classes), Year 2 (1 class) and Music for Year 2.

Teaching is fun but in the early weeks i was kinda tired..a lot. Now i know how to handle Year 1 classes esp. those hyperactive ppls.

My school..hmmm okla but can't elaborate more.Possibility to be sacked out if i did this.

Now am trying to do 'rayuan'. I know it is very early but i am considering the health stage of my mum whereas she is now in a depression mode thinking of her daughter alone in other state.

Hubby...i pity him coz he has to do all the thing i usually does for him. Ironing his clothes now, no one to talk to..u know, things the we usually do together and now he is alone and i'm too.

Really sad being alone here despite lotsa friends..

Going back home on CNY this 12/2 by 9.45pm bus in Larkin.

Plan to catch up with hubby,parents and frens about my life here in Johor.

Wish me cheers..

I'm leaving..

This Friday am gonna leave all the things that i love so much..my hubby,my parents, my MIL, my cats, my fave places in Taiping and head down south to Johor.

As far as I'm concern, i still don't received any calls or letters to inform the name of the school where i suppose to teach.

I am kinda sad and gloomy now.

Generally, i am OK to move down south but to leave my hubby..i feel i wanna cry my heart out.

I am gonna miss him.No kisses in the morning when we wake up together..
No hugs from him when i am sad or depressed..

I am gonna missssss him soooo mucchhh!!!

Miss my past life

I miss my past life (not that i've been reborn)

i mean my life in maktab

my life when i used to lived in Gerik for sweet 3 months..

Yes..i love the feeling when i travel along the road to Gerik..

looking at those greneries..kampung houses..the feeling when i saw the signboard 'Padang Kunyit'
means that i am arriving to Gerik town in less than 10 minutes.

The relaxing life in Gerik..slow-paced life where u dont need to rush

The morning coldness,the dew, the winding road near Kampung Pahat where love to slow down and open my window to breathe in the cold breeze..

That was Gerik...

In Maktab in SP.. i had 7 other housemates and the house did not feel crowded at all

it was full of LOVE and LAUGHTER..

everyone was everyone's sister..

i love to cook in the evening..preparing Kuah Durian for my housemates..

we would sit all around and gossiping..

after class, we would go shopping and roaming the town until nite..

it was 8 of us and 6 of us had our own car..so u can imagine the situation where the parking lot in front of our house was full of cars.

i had to park next to the landlord's garden.

on weekends we would all out for lunch in a place we called 'pokok ceri' where it sells best ikan bakar and lauk2 kampung..yummy!

and on friday nite usually my hubby would come and he picked me up and we stayed in a hotel.
and on sunday morning,he would sent me to the house and will have a ride with akma or on my own car..

i miss all that..

hmm...
:(

* this post is a tribute to akma,mas,siti,tini,nurul, kak jue and wana.
loe you all,girls...

Thanx to all

My exam's result was out yesterday.

I thought that i would join the gangs of 'Kepujian' just like the others who did it before..

But thanx to all especially to hubby who has sacrificed everything to me..forl I've got

CEMERLANG for my result.

Alhamdulillah..!!

Then?

i never poke into people's life..

i live on my own..

and i only have immediate friends who trust and security is given the best..

However, i tried to mingle with this clan..but don't be deceived by the looks..

They might look attractive,happening and NOT SARCASTIC and BERLAGAK as in me..

But if u refuse to be in their clan..or go against them..u will 'suffer' by their personal attack in the what else..new book of the era..the Facebook..

I had my fix but i never give a damn coz i know where i stand..and i live not for their sake..

i LIVE for the truth of LILLAHITAALA...everything i do i try to be sincere..

But with this clan..sincerity is not their pledge..

As i realized,i became increasingly annoyed with them..

But what the hell should i care..i live my own and not for them.Period!

Haloo!

It has been a while since i last wrote..

Well...a lot had happened during my MIA from this blogosphere..except for Facebook..

I've just finished my KPLI exams today.Only 3 papers comprises of 2 subjects..English and Pedagogy.

Both i can say okla..but i think i can do better..but after all i am grateful for i was able to answer all.

And something of false alarm happened to me.

I thought i was PREGNANT but i wasn't.

It was kinda sad but i brushed it off.

I was having stomach cramping..nausea..loss my appetite and all.Even thinking about nasi campur made me feel queasy and nauseous.

And i missed my mens for quite a while..so what you expect other than PREGNANCY?

So i went to buy pregnancy tester and when i was about to test myself..my mens says hello!

Wasn't it ironic..?Hmmm...

Hubby says it is ok..Tuhan belum bagi rezeki kat kita ya..

Hopefully i can get pregnant soon because i can't wait for having little baby in my arms..

:)

Raya 2009

I feel so glad this year because i got the very first chance to celebrate the Eid with my beloved hubby.

We even planned to wear the same color-RED

A friend of mine thought that we looked like Dato' and Datin.

Anyway..to all readers and friend..we wished you Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri..